New Again.

Well.. haha. I don't know where to start on recapping so I won't. I'll just give the gist of where I'm at now.

I am single and feeling pretty good about that right now. Made an incredibly difficult decision with the help of family and friends to end a relationship that was becoming unhealthy and difficult. God was not as center as he needed to be and it affected ever aspect of the relationship. So I am feeling good about that decision despite the difficulty.

I am living in El Paso, Texas. The focus is on finishing my school and it is super frustrating right now. I have 4 papers, a thesis and a training to finish by August and I just don't know if I see that happening. I am already pushing my graduation back to August and if I can't really get some work done by the end of April I'll need to push it again. The most frustrating part is feeling lost in deadlines. There are no concrete deadlines just assumed schedules of when papers might be turned in so it is hard to really get to work and feel like it HAS to be done. My training is scheduled for May 9, and I think I just finished revisions to my first paper. I am about 1/3 done with my second paper. I feel better this week now that I know that I can't slack off anymore. I think my big issue is my study habits. I have a hard time studying at home. I usually need to seriously stay somewhere for 4-8 hours, best place being a library but the only one I like around here is UTEP for its books and they don't let me use their internet because I am not a student. I usually end up at Kinleys, but on my days off its a pretty big waste of gas.

Outside of school, work is going well. For those who don't know I am working at Bed Bath and Beyond. I just got trained as a Front End Supervisor which is pretty sweet. That just means I work at the Customer Service desk and supervise the other cashiers and such, help with training, and do important things like approve refunds and discounts. SCARY!! We still haven't found out if we get a raise or not but I'll find out on my next check I guess. Whether we do or not, I'll still get good hours since there are only four of us.

Other than that, things are going well with family I guess. I miss my sister and her family a lot. Every once and a while I think about living out there for a few years. I don't really like that area, but I miss being near family and stuff. For now the plans are to look for a job in Dallas. I know I know. I never planned on living in Texas, but right now they have a pretty good job market.. you know.. being their own country and all. Plus I really wouldn't mind being near Brooke and her family. They've always sort of been my surrogate family :) It would be better than starting new.. again. I am hating El Paso right now because I know a total of 12 people, 3 of which were my fellow interns. The other 9 I work with and see plenty during the week. Outside of that all my friends are in Juarez, and I really don't cross over much.. it is pretty expensive.

Well thats the drill so far I am off to work on some training stuff this afternoon.

My goal: Finish training paperwork English and Spanish.
Tomorrow: Try to outline and have a rough draft of my second paper RPQ2.